OMG, just when you think it CANNOT and WILL NOT get any worse, surprise surprise it does!

To think that there is only 2 weeks left of my school year and with 2 looming thesis hanging in the balance and with 0 progression, I am starting to think it’s about serious fucking time I start doing some work. But low and behold… what does this man we call GOD have installed for me? The disconnection of my much needed and utterly loved internet…. I need to firstly disclaim that as much as I hate OPTUS i do love their internet service…. thats because we keep out of each others way…. they keep it connected, I dont complain and VOLA! Martial bliss between optus and sexingodess. If that was bad enough, to add insult to injury I call exetel to connect a new line, after a swift wait a guy who barely speaks english answers the call and runs me through the process, of which i struggled to understand. The lengthy conversation ended with him ‘reading’ back to me my details which were all completely wrong. An address that started with 1607 turned into 1408!?! They dont even sound remotely similar!!! oh dear me…. i can sense that this new internet connection is going to cost me more than the $40 monthly fee + the $145 connection fee….. why do things just not work out?

On top of all that stress and worry a nasty boil/pimple has developed on the bottom of my ass check… making the usual pleasurable process of sitting, an agonising position…. I am going to temple this up coming new year to ask Da buddah if he has a fight he’d like to pick with me. Common mate, you and I outside lets settle this once and for all. And bring your mate Jesus, cos he as hell aint doing anything productive up there….!

If my suffering was a sacrifice for the children of africa or the people of Burma… then ok… bring it on….this pain aint even scratched my surface… but it its due to nothing… then bugger this…. im selling my soul to Satin! ( well maybe…. the a price for everything I say)

At least Enaj has allowed me some annual leave time so I can actually do some work! Freak me…!
love ya Enaj…

anyhow… im sure there will be much news from my end in the next week or so…. during these high stress times… is the times when the madness in me really comes out and plays. If my daily life wasnt mad enough!

Anyhow on the good note, Hsa has finally found someone awesome for herself, and a great new friend for me. Dam is an awesome fellow… hahaha ey can never find a come back to my awesome piss’as but hey… cant expect everyone to be as witty and over the line as me ay!? hahaha top bloke! we all had a awesome time at the vino yard yesterday, whether was good, vino was good, company was good, boys surrounding us were good… pretty good day…. thanks ppl for temporarily taking me outta my hole!…

Thanks for the QUE cards fatbat and fatwoman…. (hahahahahahahaha thats a good one!) how much *rubbing fingers together* do I owe you? will a pair of my socks do u? what about some paper thats only been used on one side *looks around her apartment for more things to bater* what about a half used Holiday Inn pen? hahahahaha

anyhow… it surprises me how shit my life is currently ( I know it will be better soon!!!) and how eternally optimistic i still am… i must love life more than i let on…

xox
godess

P.s, birthday is near approaching…subscription to the New Yorker would definitely go down well with this old bird!
or a piano… or a collection of all time classic books…. or the DOMUS design collection!?!
common its only once a year you get to give me the some-what star treatment!
hahahahaha

Through ancient literature we can tell the notion of ‘forgive but never forget’ has been ingrained in man kind since the evolution from monkey to man. When I was younger, and none the wiser I too embraced this quote as the be all end all of quotes. Even when I was 5 and daddy yelled at me and made me kneel on rice bowls I swore to myself to never talk to him again, and that I did for a whole 2 weeks! In kiddy years, 2 weeks seemed like 2 centuries! This notion along with, no sex before marriage, no belief in abortion and having to carry a matching handbag got thrown out the windor when the REAL game of life kicked in.

It makes me wonder how much of this ‘moral’ bullshit one is willing to push when put in a tight situation.

Based on traditional assumptions of friendship, I cant say I have many friends.
I’ve grown up with the notion that friends (good friends/bestest friends) always stick by each other, even when one is wrong the other would still stick by the wrong friend. When someone wrongs one friend, they have also wronged the other friend. So when one friend thinks someone’s a dickhead the other implicitly thinks that, that same someone is a dickhead too.
But with this new ‘grown up’ notion of friendship that people are individuals and one must be mature and let your good/bestest friend befriend someone that you despise, so much so that you even start hating their mum for being a slut and sleeping with their dad resulting in the coming together of sperm and egg to create such a horrid person like that someone. I’ve come to expect nothing less than people not caring about who you hate and why you hate them.

To my guilty pleasant surprise, the other day when a somebody wronged me, my dear friend Hsa made it a point that no one was to treat her friend like that. Whoa…. I really just expected everyone to go on with their lives, while I vomited blood in anger.
It’s sometimes nice to have someone stick up for you and make it known….. as childish as it may seem I think these childish gestures reaffirm the reasons you love your friends so much. These days friendships are based on bullshit, a foundation of nothing except maybe commonalities.

Having said that, and going back to the ‘forgive but never forget’ notion, I think its also a whole bundle of bullshit.
If you were gonna remain anger and ‘on edge’ all the time then you would drive yourself mental! So I realised that I forget actually quite easily, most of the time I dont even remember why I’ve had an argument with someone.

I say if a bitter, twisted, want-to-stab-in-the-eye person like myself has to employ the forgive and forget notion, everyone should be able to do it too, it would make things so much less intense for everyone… including myself….

Hsa, thanks mate, you wont read it and I will never say it to your face cos i dont want you to laugh and call me homo but I love you mate!

xox
godess